‘One day, Anxiety and Death decided to have a race.
“Let’s race that human.” Said Anxiety.
“Whoever wins will be strongest of us, and I would like to know which one of us is.”
And Death agreed.
Anxiety went up to the human-
“Nobody loves you.”
“Nobody cares for you.”
The human looked at Anxiety, and then to Death, who was just holding out its arms for an embrace.
And the human looked sad, and walked away.
“That other human you think you love,” said Anxiety, “they don’t care about you at all. In fact, they laugh at you behind your back!”
Death, who had just walked beside them, stopped and held out its arms again.
The human looked at Death, then Anxiety, sighed, and continued to walk.
Anxiety, now just gathering speed, continued.
“Nobody will ever love you.”
“You’re being used, at best.”
“Look how insignificant you are!”
“I see you know it’s true, though you may laugh and smile, you know it’s all for nothing.”
Death stopped, held out its hand, and the human moved to shake it.
“Death is not the answer!” Said Anxiety hurriedly. “It will take you away, but there is nothing there, no light, no dark, no feeling, no thought…”
At the last word, the human hesitated. Then let their hand drop, and continued walking.
Rage, Love, Hedonism, and Purpose, had gathered around, and where cheering the human on.
They drowned out the words of Anxiety. Ever so little. And the human walked on.
“All you love will leave you!” Anxiety shouted.
Death, who had been watching silently, took out a black puppy from its robes.
It put the puppy on a leash and gave it to the human.
“Imposter!” Anxiety continued.
“Just because you have a family and children doesn’t mean you are a good parent!”
“You cannot satisfy anyone, not yourself, nor your loved ones!”
The human walked on.
Death just watched. The puppy had grown, and would grow, with every word Anxiety threw at the human.
“You are insignificant!”
The dog grew.
“The universe is beyond your comprehension! In rain, every drop is like a galaxy group, with molecules being galaxy clusters, every atom a galaxy, every electron, proton, and neutron a star, every quark, a planet, every sub quark a moon or asteroid.
The universe is like the rain, with an incomprehensible amount of drops. And you think you mean something?
You are insignificant!”
The hound growled, and the human looked to Death, who was just standing there, waiting.
“Embracing Death will only prove my point!”
“Besides, your loved ones will miss you!”
“Your loved ones don’t care!”
“No more thought!”
“What’s the point of it all?”
“Fake!”
The hound was now a beast, always growing. Too big to not see.
And always Anxiety asserted-
“Imposter!”
“You can smile, but we all know you are shit!”
“You cannot raise children!”
“You cannot create anything!”
“Nothing. You are nothing!”
“Death is the end of all, you fear it more than me!”
“Look at that monster beside you. Growing as I speak. It’s you!”
“You hurt everyone around you.”
“Nobody sees you.”
“Nobody cares.”
“Unimportant.”
“Useless.”‘
…what? You thought something thought provoking and insightful would come at the end?
I’m just telling you how it is to live with Anxiety and Depression.
-Unknown